My New Year’s Resolution 新年に向けて

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The New Years Eve was a Sunday.  I went to my favourite church downtown and heard a wonderful sermon.I thought I should think about what Alisdair said, and work on my New Year’s resolution.

The words to ponder:

“What is the wisdom learned from sorrow and joy you’ve gained in 2017 that you want to take with you to 2018?”

“What are you afraid of? The fear blocks your emerging awareness.”

“Where have you been saying YES BUT where YES AND would make a big difference?”

The wisdom I learned in 2017 can be summarized in the statement, “It’s OK to be me”.

Never mind what other people think, I am allowed to be myself, just to do what I think, in my own way, at my own pace, and with joy, gratitude, and confidence.  It’s not a shame to fail. It’s alright to start over again.

Until now, I think I was consistently aiming for the maximum I could achieve. I was always challenging myself to do the best.  I don’t regret having had that attitude, and I’m sure it contributed to some of my growth.  Of course, nobody cared it, nobody noticed it, no recognition, and certainly no reward.  It was merely to please my own soul. I have been saying to myself, “Oh it’s OK, not a big deal. I don’t need anybody to notice….”

However, I have to admit, it did hurt, sometimes.

I had a revelation this year.  I came to realize that the most important thing in my life is ‘time and relationship’, not accomplishment.  If I do my best using my own time to help somebody else, and that results in my accomplishing less, that’s OK. I certainly can’t have everything in my life, and that’s OK.  I should just keep trying.

I should not fear what people think. I should not mind monetary gain or loss.  I should just live my life the way I want. I should use my time not only for myself, but more and more to help other people.  In any case, whatever I do, I should do it sincerely and wholeheartedly.  Never mind the result.

So, my resolution for 2018 is  “Accept and forgive myself as I am, live wholeheartedly and keep making my best effort”.





「何を恐れているの? 恐れは気づきを妨げる。」







Author: Haruyo Abramson

I'm a musician, mom, and grandma, living in BC, Canada with my husband and three dogs.

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